...It's About Service...

Something I've unfortunately lacked - Service. But not just service in general. In the past few days it's become apparent that I lack giving service to those with whom I'll be with forever - my family. As I've been pondering about this issue lately, I've been receiving confirmation that I really do lack it, and need to do it. I was actually pleasantly surprised today when during Sunday School, the Stake President - President Porter - spoke precisely about that. Holy cow, it's so true what they say, you feel as though they're talking directly to you when you're guilty!!! Haha, well, I felt like a prisoner in front of the judge almost, and was being told what my community service would be to pay my debt!

I appreciated it a lot. I've been trying to have a better frame of mind, trying to be more considerate of my time with them. I've kept myself busy ever since I was in high school. It's just something I've always done. In fact, my parents taught us that we need to keep busy so that we don't get into trouble. Well... sometimes I get into trouble anyway cause I don't always choose to keep myself busy with the right things. But I've gotten better at it! I actually think about things a little more than a split second now!

So my schedule generally looks like this:

• Monday:
  1. Work from 8-5 or 6pm
  2. Drive home (30 min)
  3. Home for about 40 min to an hour
  4. Go to FHE (Family Home Evening) in Duncanville from 7:30 - 9 usually
  5. Drive home (25 min)
  6. Go to sleep eventually somewhere between 10:30 PM and 2 AM
• Tuesday:
  1. Work from 8-5 or 6pm
  2. Go to Institute from 7-8 PM (in Duncanville)
  3. Either chill with the YSA (Young Single Adults) from church, or go home
  4. Drive home and eventually go to sleep
• Wednesday:
  1. Work from 8-5 or 6pm
  2. Go workout either at 7:30 or 8:15 until 9:30-10:30pm (in Lewisville)
  3. Drive home and eventually go to sleep
• Thursday:
  1. Work from 8-5:30 or 6pm
  2. Go workout either at 7:30 or 8:15 until 9:30-10:30pm (in Lewisville)
  3 . Drive home and eventually go to sleep
• Friday:
  1. Work from 8-5 or 5:30pm
  2A. Go workout either at 7:30 or 8:15 until 9:30-10:30pm (in Lewisville)
  2B. Go to a church activity or anything else may be planned
  3. Drive home and eventually go to sleep
• Saturday:
  1. Activity? Go to it.
  2. Dirty clothes? Wash them.
  3. Workout maybe? okay... in Lewisville (30 min drive)
  4. Evening activity? Okay, go to it.
  5. Feeling guilty cause it's about 10 or 11pm? Yup... time to go home if I'm out. Then eventually go to sleep.
• Sunday:
  1. Wake up, get ready for church
  2. Go to church from 1-4pm sometimes stay for chit chat or pot luck on 1st Sunday of the month
  3. Go home, eat dinner, or chill. Sometimes go to brother's house if family went.
  4. Go to sleep eventually and Monday starts all over again.

So I have been doing this on and off for the past 2 years. Oh, and school's not even mentioned!! When I WAS going to school, I'd go straight after work and be there until 9pm usually, so there you go... Oh, and I would go workout afterwards! Yup... I stay busy, or at least, I've tried to stay busy. And now that my time to leave on my mission's getting close, I am getting questioned about my whereabouts. It's understandable. They want to spend time with me at least a little bit before I leave. So I've been trying to reasses my time, schedule and activities to spend a little more time at home.

Service... service... service... umm.... well, what can I do? I don't even want to list the inmense list my mom could bust out with, so I'm just gonna say: Plenty. Too bad these past 4 years I've had such a good job I didn't properly spend my money, I have nothing of real importance to show for it. I wish I could have given more to my family now that I think about it... But when I return from my mission and get another job (hopefully as good as or even better than the one I still currently have until May 4th - my resignation date), I would like to really keep a budget, and give some $$ to my parents, who have given me sooooo much all these years.

There's not enough $$ to pay them back all they've given and all the time they've sacrificed. I definitely can't complain. We've had a really good life. By no means are we rich nor were we ever, but they always tried to get us good stuff, and take us on trips. I'm so glad my mom & dad didn't acustom us to expensive clothing and name brand items/materials. In fact I could care less if I'm wearing all Walmart clothes or Ed Hardy (which btw, why would I want to be full of shiny things created by a man???). I wouldn't dare spend over $25.00 on a shirt!! Unless..... it's for a guy.. hahaha!! But going over $45, even for a gift is not an option for me. Clothes are all about making it look good, regardless of what little name tag or huge print it may have on it to identify its creator.

Purses?? Hahahaha!!!! Silly girls who pay $100 for a bag that does nothing more than hold JUNK. Cause usually that's all we carry - Junk and Necessities. There are no in betweens. Oh hey, did you see there's a HUGE "C" on your bag? Is Coach paying you to advertise them? Because if they are, then $100 is nothing, shoot, even I will get in on that! But they aren't, are they? On the contrary, you're paying $100 to advertise THEM!!! Cute? Pretty? Guess what, there are plenty of purses created by nobody's that are just as pretty, cute, and serve the same purpose.

Anyway, back to Service. I need to do it. That's the end of that story. LOL... the rest... well, I guess I've been wanting to express my view!